My last trip to the Nats was without doubt the worst showing in any sport I have ever made in my entire life.
The problems? There were many, I had to come in at a weight my body should never be at. The weight classes for Classic BBing is just wrong for me. I'm posting a pic of what I looked like two months before the show and still 12lbs over weight at between 6 and 8%. Upon posting this pic I had many well informed members I respect tell me to just stop before I hurt myself. I should have listened. I had just wrapped my head around competing and not dropping out and committed myself to the end.
As it turns out it was a HUGE mistake that cost me valuable muscle that I think I'll have to re-build. I don't think it's going to be a muscle memory easy ride because I emaciated it off me. I look at the 2016 Nats pics and literally can't believe how I destroyed my body. This disaster was caused by many factors but in the end, I OWN IT. I did it and in the end, it's me that must live with it.
After this experience it was hard for me to wrap my head around even thinking about getting back on the horse. I have been playing around in the gym and occasionally pounding in a good one once in a while. The hate I have experienced in open forum over this last show has really bothered the shit out of me. People I thought were friends just weren't. There were times I felt like walking away from here.
This being said, I'm not going anywhere. This is a forum about the sport I live for. It's my life. Am I that shallow? Ya, I guess I am. Will I be doing another show? I sure hope so. But I knew I shouldn't have got on stage last time looking like a tewl. I will NEVER get on stage unless JOHN FITZPATRICK feels he can bring it. No more doing it because of other peoples efforts and guilt. That shit is way over with. LOL, I wasn't mind fucked, I knew I looked like shit and just listened to all the "do it, you have come this far's". God damn, I get pissed just thinking about it.
It's time to do what I have done for years and that's pound some iron and fucking grow. I will undo this mess and once again be the BBer that I'm comfortable being. My log wont be a low doses, deceptive clown story blowing smoke up your ass. It will be the reality of what I'm doing with ZERO fucking excuses. I'm fully aware all it takes is 300 mgs of test to put on 25lbs of solid mass in a month. I'm just going to do more because I enjoy the label of drug abuser.
Well, I think that's about it for the soap box portion of the show.
Lets get on with this.
I hope to answer the question: Can an older guy still make new muscle. I have never won a show over the weight of 198lbs. I will be having weekly pics and way ins. Anything of interest to me will be pointed out as this unfolds. I will be more than happy to explain my reasoning behind my actions as this goes. As long as I have been a member here and PM I have never had a BBing log. I hope anyone following this will be entertained and may even learn a thing or two. Please excuse the poor grammar.
Thanks for taking the time!
My first pictures will shamefully be put up this weekend. In the following posts I will explain diet/training and gear.
Again, this is the two month out pic when I still needed to lose 12lbs
The problems? There were many, I had to come in at a weight my body should never be at. The weight classes for Classic BBing is just wrong for me. I'm posting a pic of what I looked like two months before the show and still 12lbs over weight at between 6 and 8%. Upon posting this pic I had many well informed members I respect tell me to just stop before I hurt myself. I should have listened. I had just wrapped my head around competing and not dropping out and committed myself to the end.
As it turns out it was a HUGE mistake that cost me valuable muscle that I think I'll have to re-build. I don't think it's going to be a muscle memory easy ride because I emaciated it off me. I look at the 2016 Nats pics and literally can't believe how I destroyed my body. This disaster was caused by many factors but in the end, I OWN IT. I did it and in the end, it's me that must live with it.
After this experience it was hard for me to wrap my head around even thinking about getting back on the horse. I have been playing around in the gym and occasionally pounding in a good one once in a while. The hate I have experienced in open forum over this last show has really bothered the shit out of me. People I thought were friends just weren't. There were times I felt like walking away from here.
This being said, I'm not going anywhere. This is a forum about the sport I live for. It's my life. Am I that shallow? Ya, I guess I am. Will I be doing another show? I sure hope so. But I knew I shouldn't have got on stage last time looking like a tewl. I will NEVER get on stage unless JOHN FITZPATRICK feels he can bring it. No more doing it because of other peoples efforts and guilt. That shit is way over with. LOL, I wasn't mind fucked, I knew I looked like shit and just listened to all the "do it, you have come this far's". God damn, I get pissed just thinking about it.
It's time to do what I have done for years and that's pound some iron and fucking grow. I will undo this mess and once again be the BBer that I'm comfortable being. My log wont be a low doses, deceptive clown story blowing smoke up your ass. It will be the reality of what I'm doing with ZERO fucking excuses. I'm fully aware all it takes is 300 mgs of test to put on 25lbs of solid mass in a month. I'm just going to do more because I enjoy the label of drug abuser.
Well, I think that's about it for the soap box portion of the show.
Lets get on with this.
I hope to answer the question: Can an older guy still make new muscle. I have never won a show over the weight of 198lbs. I will be having weekly pics and way ins. Anything of interest to me will be pointed out as this unfolds. I will be more than happy to explain my reasoning behind my actions as this goes. As long as I have been a member here and PM I have never had a BBing log. I hope anyone following this will be entertained and may even learn a thing or two. Please excuse the poor grammar.
Thanks for taking the time!
My first pictures will shamefully be put up this weekend. In the following posts I will explain diet/training and gear.
Again, this is the two month out pic when I still needed to lose 12lbs