Now that I've been clean for nine months I'm slowly just changing. Although it's not my choice it's the deck I have been delt. It's so frustrating looking around the gym and seeing guys that are obviously jacked. Yes I wish I was one of them. But guys in the gym are still saying I look good and that lifts me up at times. My liver enzymes are still way to high to even think about it. So I'm "The Clean Guy". At my age and having done gear for years even HRT would be huge but I can't even do that. Thing is at times I'm fine with it and other times it drives me nuts. Maybe it's my insecurities that make me want to be jacked? Who knows. But with time it seams to be getting better. I'm still reasonably lean at 215lbs. Not so bad for 5'9"...….I keep telling myself.
I keep my fingers crossed and just hope for better days. My wife keeps saying "Be happy your alive Jackass"LOL. She's always right ya know.
So who else is having issues not being jacked? Anyone???
I keep my fingers crossed and just hope for better days. My wife keeps saying "Be happy your alive Jackass"LOL. She's always right ya know.
So who else is having issues not being jacked? Anyone???