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I have no doubt you will achieve your goal.
Good luck
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The log wouldn't be of much use if I wasn't honest about every thing. So heres the truth. I got completely ready to go to the gym and drove half way there. I then turned around and drove back home. I'm too embarrassed to walk back in the gym being a fucking "Starving Marven" version of what I once was. I had guys looking back at me every time I lifted my head and looked around the gym and now they will be staring for a different reason. A bad and embarrassing reason that I just couldn't face yesterday. I know I have to man up to this and just do it but God damn it's going to suck guys. The last time they all saw me I was huge and full...………...know I will be a spectacle of embarrassment.
I'm even considering staying home and just doing pushups and working with bands until I can some what put some size back on. I just have to figure this out. It would seam I figured out the entire plan on how to get back on the horse until I faced reality. Sucks to be me.
I think considering what happened, you'll get a ton of support if anyone knows you and your situation.Well I trained at home last night doing pushups and working with some warm up bands I have from doing shows. This isn't going to work. Tonight I'm going to put on a hoody and just go to the gym. It is what it is.
You guys are right. I'm there for me not them...………...
I trained at Retro Fitness last night. A little chest , back, shoulders and arms. I'm so weak I thought the cable machine was jammed at first. I only trained on machines and went to failure most of the time. Tonight I'll do legs. I feel like a train wreck today. I'm drinking a lot of water and trying to eat well.
I trained at Atalla's gym in Egg Harbor NJ last night. That's my home gym. It was unbelievable how much positive support I received from everyone that knew me. They all kept saying "just be glad you still here with us". I guess I loose sight of that at times and should stay better grounded with reality.
I did legs last night. Some guys helped me with 45lb plates on the sled. This was a good experience. Everyone including the owner kept saying "if anyone will make a come back, it's you dude". That made me feel good. Believe it or not my knees feel better this morning after doing legs. Go figure.
Btw, you mentioned your coach and getting back to work with him eventually and you just need to eat. I agree you need to eat but, if you want or need any help in the mean time, feel free to pm me. I would gladly offer any advice or help any way I could but, you know what you need to do so maybe it would just be some extra reassurance.Hey guys progress pics will be up tomorrow. Hopefully something has improved.lol
























