For the ones wondering why i have not been on and seem a tad different, this is why. I was still dealing with my side project, getting so serious it wasnt even funny. Living two lives for about 7months, takes it toll like no other. Too many and i mean too many close calls. But i ended it with side project aka girlfriend yesterday. I thought i would be super happy and conscious would be cleared. but i feel like ass, she cried and cried and made me feel like shit. She is a great girl and i fucked up her world. the thing is though, i want tobe with her, but i also want to maintain my current life. To all those other guys that do what i do, or did. watch out, shit snowballs fast. Damn, i feel lower than shit. On the bright side, she'll find someone who treats her right and is not involved. a hot girl who makes money, but damn the ass was so good and she worked out with me and watched porn with me. ah well, its going to be a bumpy road ahead.