- Sep 29, 2012
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Recently a friend of mine committed suicide. He had PTSD from Iraq but it seemed to be in control. He had good potential bodybuilding, did a couple local shows. I looked up to him given his dedication to the military, work volunteering with veterans, always a positive attitude an willingness to help anyone that needed it. One of those guys you never caught not smiling an he never said anything negative about anyone.
He got sick a few months back (something with his colon) an lost a lot of weight. At the same time started dated someone which on the outside looked to be going good. He came to me in October about my thoughts on him getting back into the gym an mentioned he was looking at doing a cycle for help.
Few weeks go by an he contacts me to say "you just have to do whatever you have to, to get back in the gym right?" of course I said yeah. A couple weeks later he's asking about coming to visit that he's having relationship issues an needs to get out for a bit. I say ok, but ended up getting busy and couldn't meet up. Shortly after I changed my number an forgot to give him the new one.
This month had been crazy busy for me which was unexpected and then I get the call he had tried calling a few people, went missing for a few days, and shot himself.
I'm not sure what if anything he took an had any effect an really could care less. They said his PTSD had gotten worse but since I moved didn't see him so often. I'm still having a hard time dealing with it as a lot of others are. He was the type of guy that would do something crazy just to make people laugh an smile. At one point I wanted to give up an he convinced me not too. I still have to fight back tears when I think about it and wish I could have been there. It's affected me more then my own family members passing away.
My PTSD never effected me that bad and I'm not sure if that was entirely all it but I do know I'll never not make time for a brother that needs me that suffers from it or any other reason. Guess I wanted to post this so if anyone else has a close friend in the same situation hopefully they never have to go thru this.
He got sick a few months back (something with his colon) an lost a lot of weight. At the same time started dated someone which on the outside looked to be going good. He came to me in October about my thoughts on him getting back into the gym an mentioned he was looking at doing a cycle for help.
Few weeks go by an he contacts me to say "you just have to do whatever you have to, to get back in the gym right?" of course I said yeah. A couple weeks later he's asking about coming to visit that he's having relationship issues an needs to get out for a bit. I say ok, but ended up getting busy and couldn't meet up. Shortly after I changed my number an forgot to give him the new one.
This month had been crazy busy for me which was unexpected and then I get the call he had tried calling a few people, went missing for a few days, and shot himself.
I'm not sure what if anything he took an had any effect an really could care less. They said his PTSD had gotten worse but since I moved didn't see him so often. I'm still having a hard time dealing with it as a lot of others are. He was the type of guy that would do something crazy just to make people laugh an smile. At one point I wanted to give up an he convinced me not too. I still have to fight back tears when I think about it and wish I could have been there. It's affected me more then my own family members passing away.
My PTSD never effected me that bad and I'm not sure if that was entirely all it but I do know I'll never not make time for a brother that needs me that suffers from it or any other reason. Guess I wanted to post this so if anyone else has a close friend in the same situation hopefully they never have to go thru this.